So CLOSE yet so FAR...

It's been a while since i last updated my blog, kinda busy nowadays packed with daily lesson plan, marking exercises, and not forgetting interviews...talking about interviews, last July i went for the MASwings cabin crew interview...i wasn't confident enough to pass through all stages but thank God that it was my lucky day...i get through all 3 stages (1st stage height and weight, 2nd stage grooming, 3rd stage interview)...I was very happy that i managed to get through it...it made me realize that there are things which we are reluctant to go for and happened that it was something that worth trying for...

I was told that the result of the interview will be around two weeks time...while waiting for the result i never stop praying, i was on my knees day and night praying to get that job...God knows how i felt..it was my once dream job...yes!! i admit that i have a degree in hand but to me it what important is that what my heart wants not the possession of degree that i have...and i do believe the knowledge that i've gained during my tenure as a mass comm student can be apply if i were to be a cabin crew...people keep on telling me that i'm just wasting my time applying for a lousy job whereas i'm a graduate...they just won't understand, nowadays unlike the 70s, and 80s where job are hunting for workers...the situation now is completely different, it's people hunting and compete with one another to get a job...besides, if our ex PM knows that he would be a PM he wouldn't have wasted his precious time studying medic...the same goes with me, doesn't mean that i have to work on that field and i cannot walk beyond that path....

two weeks passed by...08.08.2011 a lucky date for me...MASwing called me up and told me that i was selected...OMG!!knowing that out of 400++ applicants i was 1 of 10 that is selected makes me jumping like a bunny, i was the happiest human alive on that day...but i was told to go for medical check up...if i get through the medical check up then i'll proceed for training...yahhhhooooo!!!!

10.08.2011 the medical check up date, an important date for me...i arrived at the MAS office earlier then i was told to...i proceed fo9r my medical check up when the medical centre is ready...sadly i get through all the check ups except for the hearing test...i didnt manage to pass my medical check up...i was told to wait and the doctor will discuss with the HR...

of course at this point i was very devastated knowing that my chances of getting the job i ever wanted is getting dull...but still i never stop praying...i was not satisfied with the MAS medical centre's result so i went to several ENT to confirm it and how to go about it...it's so heartbreaking to know that i won't even stand a chance to be what i wanted to due to my hearing lost problem....but 1 ENT specialist did motivate me and her words really strike my mind... "Manda, you have 1 door closed but you have a million doors still open". I do agree with that but i just can't wash away my sadness and bury all my disappoinments...it takes time to heal...

as i was busy mending my broken heart, i received a call from MASwings and i was given a 2nd chance to do  another hearing test...it's like a blessing from heaven...thank God...and so i went for my 2nd hearing test...but before that i told myself to get ready for the best and worse....but in the end, the failed my 2nd hearing test....i was soooooooo sad....

But still i thank God for giving me chance to feel how it's like to get through this far...and i believe God will answer my prayes in 3 different ways...

1.God says yes and gives what you want.

2.God says no  and gives you something better.

3. God says wait and give you the best.

Now i am under ENT treatment, and i hope that my hearing will get back to normal...

If you can't convince them, then, confuse them...

I'm kind of confused...don't know where to start but let's just cut it short...what is the differences of a son and daughter??(regardless of gender) I just don't understand why some parents nowadays still pamper their son more than their daughter, in fact son seems to be everything...hmm...they treat a son like a precious rare diamond and daughter just like unwanted tissue roll found everywhere in the toilet...whatever a son does, right or wrong, it doesn't matter, it's not a bog deal cause everything seems beautiful in their eyes...come on...we are all living in a civilized world today, why s this kind of unhealthy mentality still exist in such a modern world??

~Mei ge ren de zhui li, qian mian de yi ju hua, jiu shi GONG XI GONG XI~

Tung2 Ciang....Tung Ciang.....Tung Ciang Ciang Ciang.... Kabooooommmmm.....

hehe...Happy CHINESE NEW YEAR OF THE BUNNY....it comes once in evry 12 years...so appreciate every passing moment....May d year of the bunny bring us all LUCK, PROSPERITY, GOOD HEALTH n lots of $$$$ kaching2 $$$$ (angpaw) 2 collect diz year.... (^_^)

Dropping........

Never ever jump into your own CONCLUSION before you know the TRUTH....

i'm SOWY (T_T)

Today, I realize that I LOST 60 seconds of HAPPINESS for every single minute that I'm ANGRY....

When you realize you've made a mistake, make amends immediately.  It's easier to eat crow while it's still warm.  ~Dan Hei

Dedicated to DIAMONDS OF MY HEART (Lala n Woofy)... (T_T)

My little Lala passed away, no more to breathe a sound.
I held her for the last time, then entombed her in the ground.
Day and night I wept so much, in tears I thought I'd drown.
I searched my soul for comfort, but no peace therein was found.

In great despair, I hit my knees and then began to pray.
"Father will I ever see, my doggies (Lala & Woofy) again someday?"
I raised my eyes and saw an angel standing near a gate.
I sensed an inner peace I'd never felt before that day.

The angel smiled and said to me, "Oh man of little faith!
God sees every bird that falls; He knows your Lala's n Woofy's fate.
I have met your little dogs, I saw them pass my way.
Your precious doggies are still alive; they just walked through this gate.

Paradise is lovelier than you can comprehend.
No pain or grief, no tears or fears, and life will have no end.
God gave to man His only Son, to cover all his sins.
So why would God withhold from you, your pure and loving friend?”

The angel took me by the hand and said, "Now come with me.
A glimpse of paradise I'll give, to you so you can see."
Through the gate and over the Rainbow Bridge we did proceed.
Through green valleys filled with flowers, rolling hills and trees.

“Wow, so this is paradise!” The place was filled with joy.
I saw my Lala n Woofy playing there, with dogs and cats and toys.
They also had some doggie treats, and food that they enjoyed.
They'd made a lot of new friends there, including girls and boys.

Then I saw a child come near, and hug my little mate.
She said to her, "I love you so," and kissed her on the face.
The angel said, "The child just crossed the Rainbow Bridge today."
Now she needs a little friend, to love and help her play.

God’s love for her would be enough, in that make no mistake.
But in His love, He knew full well, the child would want a mate.
This is why God called your dog unto this splendid place.
God’s entrusted her with Lala, ‘til you pass through the gate."

I pleaded, “May I hug them both?!” The angel answered, “No!"
You’d violate a sacred site, and now it’s time to go.”
He led me back across the Bridge and through the gate to home.
He left me there with new-found hope and peace within my soul.

If someone ever asks what happens to a dog that dies,
Just give a gentle smile of joy and look them in the eye.
Take their hand and comfort them and tell them not to cry.
For dogs don’t die, they simply cross a bridge to paradise.

My Little Lala

Those were the days

My Pwetty Woofy

Mahal Ko

Remember the first day when I saw your face
Remember the first day when you smiled at me
You stepped to me and then you said to me
I was the woman you dreamed about
Remember the first day when you called my house
Remember the first day when you took me out
we had butterflies although we tried to hide it
and we both had a beautiful night

The way we held each others hand,
the way we talked, the way we laughed
it felt so good to find true love
I knew right then and there you were the one

I know that he loves me cause he told me so
I know that he loves me cause his feelings show
When he stares at me you see he cares for me
You see how he is so deep in love
I know that he loves me cause its obvious
I know that he loves me cause its me he trusts
and he's missing me if he's not kissing me
and when he looks at me his brown eyes tell his soul

Remember the first day, the first day we kissed
Remember the first day we had an argument
we apologized and then we compromised
and we've haven't argued since
Remember the first day we stopped playing games
Remember the first day you fell in love with me
it felt so good for you to say those words
cause I felt the same way too

The way we held each other's hands,
the way we talked, the way we laughed
it felt so good to fall in love
and I knew right there and then that you were the one

I know that he loves (me)cause he told me so
I know that he loves me cause his feelings show
When he stares at me you see he cares for me
You see how he is so deep in love
I know that he loves me cause it's obvious
I know that he loves me cause it's me he trust
and he's missing me if he's not kissing me
and when he looks at me his brown eyes tell his soul

I'm so happy, so happy that your in my life
and baby now that your apart of me
you've shown me
shown me the true meaning of love(the true meaning of love)
and I know he loves me

I know that he loves me cause he told me so
I know that he loves me cause his feelings show
When he stares at me you see he cares for me
You see how he is so deep in love
I know that he loves me cause it's obvious
I know that he loves me cause it's me he trust
and he's missing me if he's not kissing me
and when he looks at me his brown eyes tell his soul

He looks at me and his brown eyes tell his soul

(T_T)

uhuk2..my bby curve housing rosak...maw ganti yg bru pown maw 8 least 100 hengget....dat's ony d housing itself blom agi maw psg2...huhu...

VEWY D KURANG AJAR!!

I was heading 2 KK wen suddenly i really really really need a toilet...so i dropped by 8 Likas sport complex...turun ja dri keta den direct menerunjung p tandas...bleh2 plak t'jumpa 6 ekor SETAN in school uniforms MEROKOK smbl sandang beg LEVI'S...Den yg 1 ekor nie said "Wow, kalaw sa trip ko 1 round bleh ka??" IMAGINE bdk belasan tahun gtu bleh b'prangai so d vewy kurang ajar kalah2 SETAN!!bikin panas!!kici2 xmaw mampos, sdah bsar menggangu kehidupan org...bapa mama antar p skolah suh blajar jd manusia b'gna but end up jd SETAN....mmg dasar manusia xda B'TAMADUN!!

Devastated!!

Amat heran manusia zaman skang...nvr appreciate wat dey hav in hands...mac jua xpuas ati,mac jua ada yg kureng...ok d story begin lyk diz, diz lady got what she'd yearn for but still no satisfaction...sa betul2 xphm coz it doesn't click my mind,it's so ridiculous...tym sa bsg2 ko diam2 mcm 2 tikus kan??but wen i diam ody ko plak maw set up d fire...adedeh...simpati jua...lady, let me tell u diz, u don hav 2 dwell on d past coz past iz past n u don live ur life for d past but u live ur life for d future...d reason u became lyk diz iz bcoz of u never let go wat'z done...dat iz y u feel INSECURE...take diz as a lesson 4 u 2 learn 4m k...